This Blog is for You.

This blog is for you. You gave me the courage to stand out in a world on my own. To face the challenges of everyday with a smile on my face and to know that no matter what I could make it. When I looked to you for guidance you were there showing me the way to go. Teaching me that it was okay to make mistakes that is why they were called that. But the goal was to learn from them. You used laughter to show me how to face my fears and look them in the eyes and stare them down. I became the person I am because of the person you believed I could be. You showed me that love was unconditional it had no boundaries. I learned that I could make mistakes and no matter what you would never walk away from me. You were there with me through the good times and the bad holding my hand giving me the confidence to find within myself what I needed to take steps outside myself. You let me fly away all alone knowing I could but was there the minute I needed you. You never lied to me always telling me how it was, keeping it real. I learned to be strong but to never be so strong that I could not find my way back. You kept me grounded never letting me forget that I was beautiful inside and out. That my heart was pure and my innocence was a quality that was okay to have in this world.

If anyone gives me the passion to write it is you. You gave me the love of healing. To me that was the greatest gift I could have ever received. No one could ever understand what a gift that was to get. You taught me that I did not have to be be biter or angry. That overcoming all of that and being a better person was what it was about. You gave me the passion to feel the deepest kind of love, to be able to see myself. To see past all the hate in this world and anger that is in it and stand up to it. You showed me how to stay true to me and never let the world take away my wonder.

This is for you. Everything I write every word is on here written from my heart. Written with the passion that I have for what you gave me. Love. So while I miss you and love you with all my heart I know that you are out there reading this somewhere. You are a part of me and I have you with me everyday.

With every ounce of my heart I love you

amy

Loving someone your entire life.....

My heartbreak that never has happened or at least not that I am aware of. Sometimes we just love someone our entire lives. They take that step into our lives one day and we love them no reason needs to be given and it is not for any other thought provoking momentous thing. It is just love. Do I even ponder what it is. Nope I have just let it go on being what it is. They leave us going off into the distance and never really giving us a reason we see them places at first but our heart pangs at their face. They don't care we are not on their radar they have other needs and we are not it. But that is the way it is. Now who is this person it could be anybody really and you just have to decide for yourself who it is in your entire life that fits this. I have some yes more then one that have crossed my path. Do I love them yes with a passion that is beyond definition. What is love I guess it is what I describe further down in my blog you know a few lower then here.

How does it feel to be loved and how does it feel to give love are two different things in my book. I think we can give love but to be loved is harder. To allow ourselves to be loved means we have to open our souls up and risk being hurt. Have to really take a leap that the other person will not destroy us. Can you really do that? Can you really take a leap of faith that important to let someone be that much inside of you that they become a part of your soul? A piece of you? The other half of what is missing? Could you really allow yourself to let your guard down so completely? To stand in front of another person and tell them here take my heart in your hands and hold it, take my soul it is yours? Hold it, care for it, keep it safe? A person would have to know that you are so completely in love with them that you are their soul mate? The one who would never hurt them no matter what? My heart could not do that again. Love is such a delicate word it has a meaning that is so kind and gentle just saying it is emotional in itself. .

Now that brings me to the circle. Do we come back to someone? Like the bird? You know let it go if it comes back.... There is always the if it does not hunt it down and shoot it. Which I think some people have taken to heart. Sorry. Anyhow. It seems we go through many changes in our lives. What we think is the correct path may not be. But do we find out too late or does it slowly come to a end and then the circle comes back around. Do people walk back into our lives when we need them? Even ones that we did not think we needed or they needed us? Is it too presumptuous to think we pull ourselves to each other out of some unknown force? Would we have ever found each other again? Is fate that easy or cruel? Paths cross at the wrong time for some of us and sadly times are never right which can be painful. Sometimes the path crosses at the right time and then it is a time of whether to test that fate. Do we take that chance. Put the heart out there again because you know the heart kinda got pushed aside once and will it again is the question? But the heart and the soul have choices to make and they will know what to do when the time comes. They seem to know if this is what they want. Since the heart never was broken and the soul never had to repair itself there is a possibility that it won't ever have to. But the circle comes back around and the people that we just love are there as they were when we first met or saw them.

So I will end this with how I began it with sometimes we just love someone our entire lives for no reason. We just do. They may come into our lives and leave and we never see them again, loving them for just a moment. Or we may love them awhile and then they go away but when they come back it is okay. Because they have a place in our hearts that is there for them and only them. You may wonder why? the answer is as natural at the sun rising and setting everyday.

Who do I write about.......

When I write on here I am writing what I have thought about after seeing something or being inspired. Does it mean you are supposed to read into what I write? No and please do not. I write as anyone who enjoys writing does. Yes, sometimes I do have a jumping board but not always I find that anything can find its way into my head and then it swims around in there until it needs to come out. I think I have at least twenty other beginnings that were just not ready to be finished in my back office of this blog. Ones that I thought were ready and then I found they were not and may never be.

Some things are from long ago but not all of the items. Take the latest one. It seems to have created some questions or some really inquiring minds out there. While not allot of you want to know "who" it is that would cause me to write such a piece others have been reaching. But sadly it is no one, yep no one. I wrote it because I think that we all want to know how does that kind of love feels all of it not just parts of it. I could have written more but as with anything I write when I am done that is it. Done. Now was there an inspiration to me writing it? Well, that my friends is for me to know and I am not telling.

I have taken allot of the other writings out. They have gone on vacation for awhile, they needed one. But the others may come back one day out of retirement. Some will never see that light of day. Oh, and those ads click on them, I get paid when you do. Thanks.

While I notice someone does read these writings there are never comments that is okay but once in a while a hello would be nice. Hey I read them once in a while but if I start saying hello to myself...............

How Does It Feel.....?

How does it feel to have someone love you or even see you from across a room and just want to be with you more then anything else in their entire world. How does it feel to know that that person can control your emotions and with a look send you spiraling to a point of intense wanting need of their attention How does it feel to know that you can without even knowing it have someone love you without you ever knowing it? How does it feel to have someone show you the kind of love that is so intense and rare it feels like no one else could ever know what it is like? How does it feel to be touched with such tenderness that each contact is just as intense as the first touch? How does it feel to feel love? How does it feel when you know someone finds you so attractive that they still find you that way years later even though they have not seen you? How does it feel to know that you will hold someones heart in your hands for all eternity? How does it feel to know that you could break that heart? How does it feel to be loved? How does it feel to lay down next to someone and just lay there knowing that they are there next to you feeling you breath? How does it feel to look into someone you loves eyes and know they love you back without saying it? How does it feel to be needed? How does it feel to be held closely be someone that loves you and feel their heartbeat? How does it feel to see the one you love in across a room and know they see you? How does it feel to dance with the one you love? How does it feel to be treated like a delicate flower by the one that loves you? How does it feel to be loved so much that the world does not matter? How does it feel to rest your head in your loves lap? How does it feel to be told I love you from the heart? How does it feel to truly to loved? How does it feel to be the one? How does it feel to be someones soul mate? How does it feel to have someone fall in love with you? How does it feel to have the chance to love? How does it feel to walk in the park with the one you love holding their hand? How does it feel doing the things that you do when you love?