The beauty of being able to write on here is that here it is for all to see and yet some of this is from somewhere so deep inside of me that I cannot even tell you where it comes from. So I guess I just write so that my heart and soul gets to tell a story that it wants to tell. Sometimes I am not quite sure where it comes from but it does. I have written to someone and I have written to no one. I have written things that are so much a part of myself that when I am done it takes my breath away.
The pain of writing is that when you do this you leave a part of you in these words for all to see and read. A part of you is gone, never to come back, you leave it here and hope that who reads it does so with the kindness in their eyes that you took with each careful keystroke to put those words down. The time it takes to find the words to tell a story can sometimes take a while and then can take a few moments. It all depends on my heart and soul. Sounds odd doesn't it.
I never meant to try and write the things I do. I usually just sit down and stare at the monitor and hope that something will start. And then the words begin. I do have inspiration for allot of what I write and it comes from many places. The passion for what I write is there which always surprises me. I used to believe that I should not read what I write for fear that I would erase it and that I was my own worst enemy. But soon I learned that it was okay to read it and I found that I liked what I wrote.
i have been told that there is always someone who inspires me to write and I do have that in my writing. Actually I have more then one. But these people span years so the passion that I bring is from them. I guess I should thank them, yeah like that will ever happen. I could start about some other topics but you will have to wait to read those later. I think the adventures I have had are also a help in my writing, there have been some great ones and the people I was with were also great company as well. I have actually started writing a book. But I started that in 1986 and well I do not think I will ever finish it.
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